Pretending to be fine.
Tonight in my house-
What’s the matter?
🤷🏻♀️
You feeling flat?
Yep
Why?
It’s been a long week…
What do you need?
To not be expected to be chirpy…
Ok
This scenario used to end in blow up arguments about nothing constantly.
My low energy interpreted as something wrong.
His questioning interpreted as critical.
Neither of us able to communicate what we were really asking, what we really meant.
Then I learned about my nervous system and sensitivities, I worked at understanding and accepting myself, I started communicating my needs without apology and now we are here.
Sometimes I am bright and shiny, sometimes I get depleted and need space to recharge.
There’s no more pretending to be fine, no more acting like I’m not impacted by my environment when I am. So now there is also much less shutting down, pushing past my limits and exploding with unmet emotion.
There is much less drama, much less rupture and much less need for repair.
