Garden.
I spent the afternoon in my garden yesterday. I hadn’t planned to, in fact, other than a couple of walk bys, I haven’t given it a thought in months. When I put it to sleep, under a thick layer of mulch weeks ago I hadn’t planned what would come next or when. I had set an intention to pause, to focus elsewhere, to walk away and wait until the idea of putting energy into it felt good again.
I hadn’t noticed a specific day on the calendar yesterday, not a beginning or an end of a season for example but there was something in the air of the morning that said ‘it’s a good day for planting today.’ A shift that my body was noticing, a knowing about where we are in time that is connected to the Earth and it’s patterns.
I spent the morning doing the things that were planned, that did appear on the calendar, while pondering what action I should take in response to what I was feeling. An inspiring visit to buy some fresh produce from friends who had setup a stall was all the assurance I needed that it was time to get in there and get things moving.
Our passionfruit vine was all that had survived the dry, hot weeks of neglect, but the soil drank in the water happily. It didn’t sulk for a second about the state I had left it in. It woke up happy and grateful, accepting the seeds and Seasol, the Wettasoil and mulch.
It transformed in one afternoon from empty and barren to alive and full of potential.
It gave me a message- the assurance that I didn’t realise I needed, after taking a chance, a break, skipping a whole season- that perfection is not required. That ‘all or nothing’ is a trap. That ‘something’- the ‘something’ that we can manage with ease and grace- is better by far than the ‘all’ that drains joy from us and the ‘nothing’ that robs us of the hope that more is possible.
This morning, the first thing I wanted to do was get out there and water all the little seeds. Cup of tea in hand, I stood for twenty minutes feeling the cool fresh breeze, hearing the birds, searching for the sun behind the clouds. Noticing how it’s not so high in the sky, not so easy to feel or connect with, it’s rays not strong enough to break through the early morning chill. A moment and an opportunity to think about how I might need to begin to adjust for these changes.
A moment to consider that the nudge I had felt to plant was asking to me to notice all of this and guiding me to create a solution for something that is coming and has the potential to throw up a challenge for me. Something that definitely has, in years gone by, thrown me into thought spirals of wanting to avoid or control, change or hide from it.
A moment to consider that where I had first thought that nature, through my instinct and inner voice, was telling me that my garden needs me again, perhaps it was actually giving me a nudge to see how I might be needing my garden again very soon.
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My stories are less about my children these days and more about me. The Little Wildflower story is more about the way that ‘I know’ as a mother now. The way that my knowing is still challenged and tested constantly but also just as often and just as strongly validated and reassured. The way that I live my days and parent my children from this space of knowing and of instinct. The way that I rely on that space being clear and healthy to be my best self for them. How I connect with it, feed it and strengthen it everyday, is what I share about most now.
How I found my knowing, revived it and resuscitated it to begin with, is our origin story of sorts. Is something that I have written about and shared in snippets for the past ten years or so. It’s the story, with many chapters and experience, with many aspects that has given me what I need to help you. Help you to find and connect with your knowing- if you have a sense that it is there somewhere but cannot seem to grasp it with two hands.
An Initial Call is our starting place, where I get to know you and your story. Where you can experience the way that I work and receive some initial strategies to explore.
The modules you’ll find on the website are beautiful invitations to begin a deeper exploration in a place that feels most right for you and most connected to your biggest challenge right now.
Single calls allow you to create a flow to the work that suits you and your life best. Ultimately you choose your own format, timing, rhythm and together we go on a journey to find your knowing, reconnect you with it and learn what you need to keep a strong, clear and healthy connection to it always.
So that you no longer need to rely on others to keep you on the right track in parenting or in life.
